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Kur dikush fol\u00eb p\u00ebr grat\u00eb e p\u00ebrdhunume gjat\u00eb luft\u00ebs, mjafton me ken\u00eb ve\u00e7 pak njeri, q\u00eb me e kuptue se tema nuk t\u2019len vend p\u00ebr lotin tand me u vnu mbi shpatullat e tyne e me ju gjujt\u00eb lexuesit ky imazh pastaj, si portret i dhembshunis\u00eb tande, nd\u00ebrkoh\u00eb q\u00eb n\u00eb proces vlon prej paragjykimeve dhe nuk ban as p\u00ebrpjekjen ma t\u00eb vog\u00ebl p\u00ebrmes vetes, me i lan\u00eb me fol\u00eb ato.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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Berat Buzhala, n\u00eb shkrimin e tij “Nuk kisha takuar kurr\u00eb gra t\u00eb dhunuara n\u00eb luft\u00eb. Sot qam\u00eb s\u00eb bashku” t\u00eb botuem n\u00eb Gazet\u00ebn Express, ma shum se \u00e7ashtjen e grave t\u00eb p\u00ebrdhunume gjat\u00eb luft\u00ebs n\u00eb Kosov\u00eb, sjell n\u00eb pah fenomenin e protagonizimit, q\u00eb me ndihm\u00eb t\u00eb fejsbukut u ba e leht\u00eb, dhe n\u00ebnkupton, pavar\u00ebsisht q\u00eb s’di \u00e7ka thue, me hy n’valle me trendet tematike t\u00eb koh\u00ebs, sepse rr\u00ebfimi yt t’sheh, ty autorin, si protagonist. Tjerat, e k\u00ebtu hyjn\u00eb tana temat, tregohen p\u00ebr me i dhan\u00eb kuptim ekzistenc\u00ebs tande si personazh.<\/p>\n

E trend asht ba gjithashtu me derdh\u00eb lot, ose ma sakt\u00eb me kallxu q\u00eb ke kajt\u00eb p\u00ebr me e ba edhe viktim\u00ebn me ndje me ty. N\u00ebse kjo nuk e kthen v\u00ebmendjen ndaj teje, a thu \u00e7ka kish mujt\u00eb me e kthy? Trend asht ba me keqp\u00ebrdor\u00eb autoritetin, me e n\u00ebnvler\u00ebsu lexuesin, ose me e njoft\u00eb qaq mir\u00eb sa mos me ta ni p\u00ebr te, e mos me u lodh\u00eb as me lexue \u00e7ka citon.
\nPik\u00ebrisht me nji citim t\u00eb till\u00eb, prej librit t\u00eb Tolstoit ‘Ana Karenina’ q\u00eb thot k\u00ebshtu: “Familjet e lumtura jan\u00eb nj\u00ebsoj; nd\u00ebrsa secila familje e palumtur \u00ebsht\u00eb e palumtur n\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00ebn e vet.<\/em>” Buzhala e nis\u00eb tregimin mbi dhembshunin\u00eb e vetes. Buzhala e nis\u00eb nji tem\u00eb t\u00eb ndjeshme, p\u00ebr me rr\u00ebfye p\u00ebr lotin e tij q\u00eb vjen si pasoj\u00eb e kuriozitetit, jo p\u00ebrgjegj\u00ebsis\u00eb. Qyshdo me ken\u00eb, kur t’vjen me kajt\u00eb, t’vjen. Pytja asht, pse asht loti i tij qaq i rand\u00ebsish\u00ebm p\u00ebr me e pa kjo shoqni lotin e saj? Ose pse po menon ai q\u00eb asht qaq i rand\u00ebsish\u00ebm? Ose a asht tue u pa loti i saj n\u00ebn hijen e tij? Pra, pse asht loti i tij p\u00ebrmbajtja e rr\u00ebfimit? Me fjal\u00eb tjera, shkurt e shqip: pse asht loti i Buzhal\u00ebs titull?<\/p>\n

A asht Buzhala tue fol\u00eb p\u00ebr veten a p\u00ebr grat\u00eb e p\u00ebrdhunume gjat\u00eb luft\u00ebs? A asht tue i reklamu “pun\u00ebt e mikeshave t’tij” q\u00eb p\u00ebr te nashta asht ve\u00e7 m\u00ebnyr\u00eb tjet\u00ebr me fol\u00eb p\u00ebr veten anash tyne? A asht tue fol\u00eb p\u00ebr trajtimin e padrejt\u00eb ndaj grave t\u00eb p\u00ebrdhunume gjat\u00eb luft\u00ebs apo asht tue fol\u00eb p\u00ebr kuriozitetin e vet me e pa qysh duken, sepse krejt viktimat tjera i paska takue e intervistue ma her\u00ebt? A asht Buzhala tue u mundue me i kuptue ato, apo po na lutet neve me e harrue q\u00eb s’foli kurr\u00eb p\u00ebr to n\u00eb tryez\u00eb t\u00eb emisionit t\u00eb vet, se at\u00ebher\u00eb nuk ke \u201cn\u2019mod\u00eb\u201d. Po pra, n\u2019at\u00eb emisionin ku u zg\u00ebrdhijke me krejt politikan\u00ebt, t\u00eb cil\u00ebt sot kishe po i “kritikon” pa i emnu natyrisht, p\u00ebr padrejt\u00ebsin\u00eb e munges\u00ebn e p\u00ebrgjegj\u00ebsis\u00eb t\u00eb tregume ndaj grave t\u00eb p\u00ebrdhume n\u00eb luft\u00eb?<\/p>\n

Shtrohet pytja a asht q\u00ebllimi i tij me vnu drit\u00eb mbi vujtjen e tyne a mbi hijen e vet? Atij q\u00eb i bjen drita anash, ai gjuen hije ma shum. Hija e Buzhal\u00ebs asht kolosale. Pse Buzhala nuk e shtron pyetjen: \u00e7ka asht hisja e p\u00ebrgjegj\u00ebsis\u00eb tem, p\u00ebrtej foreve n\u00eb fejsbuk, me i luftu padrejt\u00ebsit\u00eb q\u00eb i bahen viktimave t\u00eb k\u00ebtij vendi, ve\u00e7an\u00ebrisht grave, p\u00ebrfshi edhe ato q\u00eb s’dijn\u00eb me i grah\u00eb kerrit?<\/p>\n

Nd\u00ebr t\u00eb tjera, Buzhala shkruan\u00a0“Mendime t\u00eb liga n\u00eb kok\u00ebn time: doja ta shihja se si duket nj\u00eb grua q\u00eb do ta nxiste nj\u00eb manjak p\u00ebr ta dhunuar.<\/em>” \u00a0Nuk asht mendim i lig\u00eb ky. Asht mendim burri, burri q\u00eb gjen\u00a0fjal\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00ebdha p\u00ebr lexuesin e tij q\u00eb ai e sheh t’vog\u00ebl, me nda politikanin e keq t’k\u00ebtij vendi t\u00eb akuzuem p\u00ebr tana t\u00eb zezat prej burrit t\u00eb mir\u00eb brenda t’njajtit njeri, dhe e quen profesionaliz\u00ebm gazetaresk k\u00ebt\u00eb bullshitiz\u00ebm. N\u00eb fakt nuk asht mendim hi\u00e7. Se t’kish ken\u00eb, tue e dijt\u00eb q\u00eb nuk asht dokja e nji grueje q\u00eb nxit “manjak\u00ebt” me i p\u00ebrdhunue ato, Buzhala nashta ia kishte dijt\u00eb kufinin vetes me ‘tingllue sarkastik’, n\u00ebse ka provu me tingllu i till\u00eb, por q\u00eb mue po m\u00eb doket q\u00eb as qate s’e ka provue.
\nI ka dal\u00eb pahiri dyqysh, qysh dalin statusat n\u00eb fejsbuk, si reagim impulsiv kur njeriu sheh nji shans\u00eb me ra n\u00eb sy pak, dhe i ka tingllu men\u00e7\u00ebm.<\/p>\n

Atij s’i shkon as mendja q\u00eb p\u00ebrdhunuesit e k\u00ebtyne grave nuk ishin “manjak\u00eb”, por ishin ushtri. S’ka t\u00eb baj me karakter njeriu p\u00ebrdhunimi i tyne, sepse ishte veprim sistematik. Ushtrit\u00eb kan\u00eb qef me i ba njer\u00ebzit me mendu q\u00eb p\u00ebrdhunuesit n\u00eb mesin e tyne jan\u00eb thjesht\u00eb do “manjak\u00eb”. Por kta “manjak\u00eb” rrall\u00eb nd\u00ebshkohen, e sidomos jo prej ushtris\u00eb s\u00eb tyne, sepse droh iu thot najnjani “ishte urdh\u00ebn”.<\/p>\n

Buzhal\u00ebs gjithashtu s’i shkon mendja q\u00eb vujtja e k\u00ebtyne grave s’asht \u00e7ashtje e heroizmit, q\u00eb ato s’jan\u00eb heroina, dhe q\u00eb krejt kjo s’ka t\u00eb baj me trimnin\u00eb e burrave. P\u00ebrdhunimi asht arm\u00eb lufte. Asht veg\u00ebl sistematike q\u00eb p\u00ebrdoret n\u00eb lufta kund\u00ebr ma t\u00eb dobtit. Asht krim lufte, q\u00eb duhet me u pa si i till\u00eb, e nuk asht \u00e7ashtje karakteri t\u00eb burrit manjak ose jo manjak.<\/p>\n

Asht \u00e7ashtje patriarkati, natyrisht, por ajo asht tem\u00eb e gjan\u00eb, q\u00eb Buzhala ka d\u00ebshmue se nuk asht i pjekun me e kuptue. Ma s\u00eb fundi\u00a0edhe n\u00eb shkrimin e naltp\u00ebrmendun ku shpreh paragjykimet e tij ndaj grues, e kahnjiher\u00eb, jam e bindun nd\u00ebrkoh\u00eb, ai nuk e kupton hi\u00e7 sa shum paragjykime ka ndaj saj.<\/p>\n

E kuptoj un\u00eb lotin e tij, thjesht\u00eb ju ka kujtu nana dhe asht ligshtu. Sepse, p\u00ebr me i dhimt atij p\u00ebrdhunimi i nji grueje, duhet me ken\u00eb personale. Duhet gruja me ken\u00eb nan\u00eb, i duhet am\u00eblsia e k\u00ebsaj fjale. I duhet nji grue q\u00eb sakrifikon p\u00ebr te. I duhet nji grue q\u00eb thot \u201cikni\u201d.<\/p>\n

Paramendojeni t’kish ken\u00eb nji grue q\u00eb kisht b\u00ebrtit\u00eb “mos ikni”. S’kish me ken\u00eb hi\u00e7 heroike. E atij i duhet heroizmi e sakrifica me simbolizue krimet ndaj grues, p\u00ebr me ia \u201cfal\u00eb\u201d q\u00eb asht p\u00ebrdhunue.
\nI duhet gjithashtu paramendimi i dokjes s\u00eb saj. I duhet femna. Grue, jo nan\u00eb, jo mot\u00ebr, jo bukuri, p\u00ebr te nuk asht boll.<\/p>\n

Nuk asht boll p\u00ebr krejt shoqnin\u00eb patriarkale ku jetojm\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Buzhala e paramenon nji grue q\u00eb u p\u00ebrdhunue gjat\u00eb luft\u00ebs, si nji nuse t\u00eb re, t\u00eb bukur, q\u00eb p\u00ebrdhunimi ia shkatrroi bukurin\u00eb. T\u00eb tingllon sikur krimi i v\u00ebrtet\u00eb asht sh\u00ebmtia e asaj bukurie, tek e p\u00ebrshkruen Buzhala iden\u00eb e tij mbi k\u00ebt\u00eb grue viktim\u00eb, e nuk p\u00ebrmend asnjiher\u00eb frik\u00ebn e saj, dinjitetin, mendjen, shpirtin. Krejt ideja e tij sillet rreth dukjes s\u00eb saj.\u00a0\u201cA thua si duket tash nj\u00eb grua e dhunuar?<\/em>\u201d pyet Buzhala. Si njeri – m\u00eb b\u00ebrtet mue krejt qenia. \u201cAjo nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb m\u00eb nuse e re dhe e bukur, sepse tashm\u00eb kan\u00eb kaluar 17 vjet nga krimi i kryer mbi trupin e saj. Fillova t’i num\u00ebroja vitet. N\u00ebse at\u00ebher\u00eb ka qen\u00eb 30 vje\u00e7are, tash duhet t\u00eb jet\u00eb rreth 50. E thinjur. Me buz\u00eb t\u00eb rrudhura. Sigurisht pa makijazh. E munduar dhe e mundur.<\/em>\u201d vazhdon Buzhala. Fiksimin e tij burrnor me dukjen e nji grueje, nuk arrin me e tejkalue edhe at\u00ebher\u00eb kur mundohet me u tregue i ndjesh\u00ebm p\u00ebr nji krim t\u00eb madh q\u00eb\u00a0u ba mbi grat\u00eb tona. Ai nuk mundet me e paramendu gruen si njeri. P\u00ebr te, mishnimi i tragjedis\u00eb s\u00eb p\u00ebrdhunimit q\u00eb ajo p\u00ebrjetoi, asht \u201ckrimi mbi trupin e saj\u201d at\u00ebher\u00eb t\u00eb ri, tashti me \u201cbuz\u00eb t\u00eb rrudhura\u201d. As p\u00ebrpjekjen ma t\u00eb vog\u00ebl nuk e ban me e kuptue tem\u00ebn ku futet, e mbi t\u00eb gjitha s\u00eb paku \u201cbuz\u00ebt e rrudhura\u201d me i shtjellue simbolikisht p\u00ebr me kuptue di\u00e7ka ose p\u00ebr me i shti njer\u00ebzit me dyshu naj mendim, masi ve\u00e7 i ran\u00eb n\u00eb mend si fjal\u00eb. Jo. S\u2019ka shtjellim, sepse mos t\u00eb harrojm\u00eb, u fut\u00ebm k\u00ebtu p\u00ebrshkak t\u00eb kuriozitetit, jo p\u00ebrgjegj\u00ebsis\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Tue ken\u00eb i padijtun ose s\u00eb paku i pasigurt\u00eb n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb tem\u00eb, tue ken\u00eb q\u00eb nuk i futet asaj p\u00ebr hat\u00ebr t\u00eb tem\u00ebs e grave t\u00eb prekuna, por p\u00ebr imazh t\u00eb vetes, rrezikon duksh\u00ebm me u tregue injorant, por nuk ja nin\u00eb. Sepse, Buzhala e di q\u00eb pak njer\u00ebz kan\u00eb me e kuptu sa pak di ai. Ai e di sa mir\u00eb shiten pallavrat, sidomos kur t\u00eb kombinohen me lot.<\/p>\n

E kuptoj, pse sfidimi i tij ndaj burrnis\u00eb t\u00eb k\u00ebtij vendi merr n’thu n\u00eb paragjykimet e tij p\u00ebr grat\u00eb dhe forc\u00ebn ose dob\u00ebsin\u00eb e saj, imazhin ose rolin e saj shoqnor. Sepse ai, si shum burra q\u00eb lodhen me pretendu q\u00eb jan\u00eb progresiv, se s’dojn\u00eb me u lodh\u00eb me u ba p\u00ebrnime t\u00eb till\u00eb, s’dojn\u00eb me e sfidu moralin burrnor t\u00eb t\u00eb par\u00ebve, asht n\u00eb m\u00ebdyshje qysh me i nda k\u00ebto dyja prej njana tjetr\u00ebs: bukurin\u00eb e grues dhe burrnin\u00eb e burrit; \u00e7nderimin e grues dhe burrnin\u00eb e burrit; moralin e grues dhe burrnin\u00eb e burrit.<\/p>\n

Merr n’thu Buzhala gjithashtu n\u00eb kurriozitetin e tij, sepse p\u00ebr te puna e tij prej gazetari, asht \u00e7ashtje kurioziteti, jo p\u00ebrgjegj\u00ebsie. Prandaj dhe prodhimin e nxjerr p\u00ebr me t’ba kurioz e jo me ta \u00e7ukat\u00eb kryet e me ta shkund p\u00ebrgjegj\u00ebsin\u00eb. E tha vet ai. \u201c\u2026nj\u00eb lloj kurioziteti e kam pasur vazhdimisht p\u00ebr t’u p\u00ebrballur me nj\u00eb grua, me nj\u00eb n\u00ebn\u00eb, q\u00eb kishte kaluar n\u00ebp\u00ebr at\u00eb tmerr.<\/em>\u201d Nd\u00ebrsa, pasiguria e tij, a me than\u00eb grue, a me than\u00eb nan\u00eb, a dyjat nji mas nji, asht, mos me e past\u00eb njoft\u00eb mendjen e tij, gati simpatike.<\/p>\n

P\u00ebr aq sa vlen, grat\u00eb jan\u00eb p\u00ebrdhunue pavar\u00ebsisht qysh jan\u00eb dok\u00eb, duhet me i kallxu dikush Buzhal\u00ebs. A t’i kallxoj edhe nji her\u00eb \u00e7ka ish nxitja? Gjaku n\u00eb damar. Urrejtja ndaj gjakut t’huej. Lufta, ish nxitja p\u00ebr p\u00ebrdhunim. A thu, a e kuptoi tash? Apo s’ka kuriozitet?<\/p>\n

Un\u00eb pata kuriozitet me e dijt\u00eb a e ka lexu ai p\u00ebrnime Tolstoin. Konkludimi se \u201ctragjedit\u00eb jan\u00eb t\u00eb ndryshme\u201d, q\u00eb e bani Buzhala mbi citimin prej Ana Karenina t\u00eb Tolstoit q\u00eb e sjell n\u00eb fillim t\u00eb shkrimit, m’la me kuptu q\u00eb, jo. Nuk e ka lexu Ana Karenin\u00ebn. E kjo, ve\u00e7 \u00e7ka sjell n\u00eb pah manin\u00eb e tij me mbet\u00eb me \u00e7do kusht n\u00eb vij\u00eb me trendin, bile bile me u ba vet trendi, e me than\u00eb di\u00e7ka edhe kur s’di \u00e7ka asht tue fol\u00eb, me rand\u00ebsi q\u00eb tjer\u00ebt me mendu q\u00eb ka lexu di\u00e7ka.<\/p>\n

Por kur s\u2019ka lexu, natyrisht q\u00eb as citimin q\u00eb e ka marr\u00eb prej list\u00ebs s\u00eb ‘goodreads’ q\u00eb i ka kushtu 10 sekonda n\u00eb ‘google search’ nuk ka mujt\u00eb tani me kuptu. Me e kuptu q\u00eb nuk asht fjala te citimi q\u00eb ka p\u00ebrzgjedh q\u00eb tragjedit\u00eb jan\u00eb t\u00eb ndryshme, por q\u00eb njer\u00ebzit jan\u00eb t\u00eb ndrysh\u00ebm n\u00eb arsyet q\u00eb gjejn\u00eb e q\u00eb i bajn\u00eb t\u00eb palumtun edhe p\u00ebrball\u00eb t\u00eb s\u00eb njajt\u00ebs tragjedi.<\/p>\n

Bile bile asht tragjike n\u00eb vetvete, kur njer\u00ebzit reduktohen n\u00eb kategorizimin e tragjedis\u00eb q\u00eb p\u00ebrjetojn\u00eb, e prej tyne pritet nji ballafaqim i caktuem sikur q\u00eb u prit prej grave tona t\u00eb p\u00ebrdhunume me shuejt e me u ardh\u00eb marre. Ose me pas\u00eb “zero vet\u00ebbesim” e me kan\u00eb “pa makijazh” qysh paragjykon Buzhala p\u00ebr me u tregu aq i padijsh\u00ebm sa asht, por ama tue mos dyshue as nji fije q\u00eb i shihet paaft\u00ebsia edhe n\u00eb gjith\u00eb at det lot\u00ebsh.<\/p>\n

E edhe p\u00ebrball\u00eb k\u00ebsaj tragjedie, pra tragjedis\u00eb me e reduktue gruen e p\u00ebrdhunume n\u00eb nji kategorizim normash se qysh ajo duhet me u sjell\u00eb e qysh me u dok\u00eb p\u00ebrball\u00eb dhimbjes s\u00eb saj, njer\u00ebzit jan\u00eb t\u00eb ndrysh\u00ebm n\u00eb arsyet e palumtunis\u00eb.<\/p>\n

P.sh.: Un jam e palumtun q\u00eb grat\u00eb jan\u00eb t\u00eb mbushuna nd\u00ebr shekuj me qaq shum marre q\u00eb ju vjen me gjini, pra vagin\u00eb, saq\u00eb edhe p\u00ebr krimet e tjer\u00ebve q\u00eb kryhen ndaj tyne, ato duhet me ni faj e me nejt t\u00eb heshtuna ose me mshef f\u00ebtyr\u00ebn p\u00ebr me mbrojt\u00eb ner\u00ebn e burrit, sot e k\u00ebsaj dite.<\/p>\n

Buzhala n\u00eb an\u00ebn tjet\u00ebr asht i palumtun q\u00eb \u201cmanjak\u00ebt\u201d p\u00ebrmes dhun\u00ebs mbi gruen, sfiduen burrnin\u00eb e tij e t\u00eb burrave tjer\u00eb.<\/p>\n

P\u00ebrzgjedhjen n\u00eb vetvete t\u00eb k\u00ebtij citimi as nuk po e diskutoj, se merr shum koh\u00eb, por po du me than\u00eb kaq: Buzhala e kupton gruen ve\u00e7 p\u00ebrmes rolit t\u00eb saj shoqnor, ku grueja e ka detyr\u00eb me ruejt lumtunin\u00eb e familjes. Pavar\u00ebsisht tragjedive. K\u00ebshtu n\u00eb thelb e kupton Buzhala, prandaj s\u00eb paku n\u00ebnvet\u00ebdije p\u00ebrzgjodhi k\u00ebt\u00eb citim.<\/p>\n

Kur e mendon mir\u00eb, jo fjal\u00ebt e Tolstoit por p\u00ebrzgjedhja e citimit t\u00eb cilin Buzhala nuk e ka kuptue, dhe m\u00ebnyra qysh e ka kuptue sjell n\u00eb pah \u00e7ka asht n\u00eb fakt arsyeja pse grueja e p\u00ebrdhunume e Kosov\u00ebs duhet me e mshef f\u00ebtyr\u00ebn. Grueja asht p\u00ebrgjegj\u00ebse p\u00ebr krejt lumtunin\u00eb e palumtunin\u00eb e familjes. Pesh\u00eb e rand\u00eb kjo p\u00ebr nji njeri.<\/p>\n

Nuk e di a i ka ra n\u00eb sy Buzhal\u00ebs q\u00eb citimi prej librit Ana Karenina q\u00eb ka p\u00ebrzgjedh ai, isht i pari n\u00eb list\u00eb n’goodreads? S\u2019u lodh\u00eb njeri bile qaty me lexu pak ma thell\u00eb. Sepse, ka besue nashta q\u00eb n\u00eb gjith\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb drit\u00eb q\u00eb ia gjuen vetes, loti i tij ka me i ba hije trunit ton\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Po aty n\u00eb ‘goodreads’ thanja e dyt\u00eb prej Ana Karenina t\u00eb Tolstoit ke kjo: “N\u00ebse lyp\u00eb me u ba perfekt, ke me humb p\u00ebrmbajtje.” Buzhala vuen me kon\u00eb perfekt. Dhe n\u00eb nji shoqni apatike p\u00ebrball\u00eb fatit t\u00eb saj e q\u00eb nuk ka vullnet ma me g\u00ebrrye p\u00ebr p\u00ebrmbajtje, kurioziteti t’shitet leht\u00eb si p\u00ebrgjegj\u00ebsi dhe bahesh leht\u00eb ‘perfekt’. Titulli asht krejt p\u00ebrmbajtja.<\/p>\n

E i nandi citim prej Tolstoit, q\u00eb m’p\u00eblqej shum, ke ky: “Ma mir\u00eb me ken\u00eb i keq n\u00eb di\u00e7ka, se rrenc e mashtrues.” E num\u00ebr pesdhet\u00eb e nand\u00eb e gjeta k\u00ebt\u00eb margaritar: “Atij i p\u00eblqejke me peshku dhe u dokke sikur isht tue mbajt\u00eb njifar\u00eb krenarie q\u00eb isht n\u00eb gjendje me ushtrue nji profesion t\u00eb till\u00eb t\u00eb budallavt.”<\/p>\n

Por, nd\u00ebr perlat e k\u00ebtij libri q\u00eb s’e kam lexu, e gjeta k\u00ebt\u00eb thanje dhe ktu po e p\u00ebrmbylli: “Ah, sikur t’ish \u00e7donjani kaq i ndjesh\u00ebm si ti! Se s’ka vajz\u00eb q\u00eb s’ka kalue n\u00ebp\u00ebr krejt kte. Dhe asht krejt aq e parand\u00ebsishme.” Kjo m’doket ke num\u00ebr shtat\u00ebdhet\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Oh, ve\u00e7 edhe nji sen, ju lutem, se s\u2019du me e lan\u00eb pa e than\u00eb: do prej grave t\u00eb p\u00ebrdhunume gjat\u00eb luft\u00ebs jan\u00eb me “makijazh”. Sigurt\u00eb. Dhe dhimbja e tyne vlen po aq sa ato pa makijazh. Nuk i kan\u00eb buz\u00ebt e rrudhuna, por t\u00eb kuqe, t\u00eb njoma. Do prej tyne nuk than\u00eb “ikni\u201d. Pra nuk dasht\u00ebn me sakrifikue veten p\u00ebr ty. Do prej tyne i p\u00ebrdhunuen n\u00eb sy t\u00eb burrave t’tyne. Gjithashtu, do prej tyne s\u2019kan\u00eb ken\u00eb shqiptare. Por krejt k\u00ebto gra, jan\u00eb gra t\u00eb p\u00ebrdhunume prej burrave q\u00eb jau urrejshin far\u00ebn edhe gjinore edhe etnike, prej burrave q\u00eb e kishin nji ushtri mbrapa q\u00eb jau rrehke krah\u00ebt, ose s\u00eb paku nji ushtri q\u00eb u ba kishe s’pa.<\/p>\n<\/div>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Kur dikush fol\u00eb p\u00ebr grat\u00eb e p\u00ebrdhunume gjat\u00eb luft\u00ebs, mjafton me ken\u00eb ve\u00e7 pak njeri, q\u00eb me e kuptue se tema nuk t\u2019len vend p\u00ebr lotin tand me u vnu mbi shpatullat e tyne e me ju gjujt\u00eb lexuesit ky imazh pastaj, si portret i dhembshunis\u00eb tande, nd\u00ebrkoh\u00eb q\u00eb n\u00eb proces vlon prej paragjykimeve dhe […]<\/p>","protected":false},"author":505,"featured_media":9191,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[13],"tags":[664,714],"ppma_author":[1348],"class_list":["post-3680","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-analize","tag-kosovo","tag-war"],"authors":[{"term_id":1348,"user_id":505,"is_guest":0,"slug":"ardiana-shala","display_name":"Ardiana Shala Prishtina","avatar_url":{"url":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/12\/ardianashalaprishtina2-1021x1024-1.jpg","url2x":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/12\/ardianashalaprishtina2-1021x1024-1.jpg"},"user_url":"","last_name":"Shala Prishtina","first_name":"Ardiana","description":"Ardiana Shala Prishtina \u00ebsht\u00eb pjes\u00eb e Antologjis\u00eb s\u00eb poeteve shqiptare \u201cMagma\u201d, p\u00ebrpiluar dhe p\u00ebrkthyer nga Vlora Konushevci dhe botuar nga SHB \u201cLittera\u201d, Prishtin\u00eb."}],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3680","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/505"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3680"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3680\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":9329,"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3680\/revisions\/9329"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/9191"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3680"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3680"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3680"},{"taxonomy":"author","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/ppma_author?post=3680"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}