{"id":4373,"date":"2015-08-13T12:07:44","date_gmt":"2015-08-13T10:07:44","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/?p=4373"},"modified":"2025-01-17T12:09:22","modified_gmt":"2025-01-17T10:09:22","slug":"udhepershkrimi-i-miljo-ambien-pjesa-3-shqiptari-vjen-duke-u-dridhur","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/analize\/udhepershkrimi-i-miljo-ambien-pjesa-3-shqiptari-vjen-duke-u-dridhur\/","title":{"rendered":"Udh\u00ebp\u00ebrshkrimi i Miljo Ambien – Pjesa 3: Shqiptari vjen duke u dridhur"},"content":{"rendered":"
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Jeta e njeriut ndikohet e vuan prej gj\u00ebrash q\u00eb n\u00eb pamje t\u00eb par\u00eb na duken ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb absurde. Disa shembuj t\u00eb p\u00ebrditsh\u00ebm shqiptar\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Kisha ardhur rishtazi n\u00eb Prishtin\u00eb, n\u00eb udh\u00ebtimin tim t\u00eb par\u00eb, dhe ishte dim\u00ebr. Fryente er\u00eb e that\u00eb ngulmuese q\u00eb arrinte t\u00eb t\u00eb prekte gjer n\u00eb eshtra. Era krijonte nj\u00eb z\u00eb q\u00eb n\u00eb fund t\u00eb vinte paska k\u00ebrc\u00ebnues viju-vijuu-vijuuuuu; ritmi p\u00ebrs\u00ebritej me ndonj\u00eb ndryshim t\u00eb vog\u00ebl. Qyteti ishte i qet\u00eb dhe i ndri\u00e7uar dob\u00ebt. Njer\u00ebzit l\u00ebviznin me hapa t\u00eb shpejt\u00eb. E mbaja frym\u00ebn time n\u00ebn pallto duke ecur ashtu q\u00eb ta shfryt\u00ebzoja p\u00ebr t\u2019u nxehur. E gjith\u00eb atmosfera t\u00eb krijonte nj\u00eb ndjesi t\u00eb mir\u00eb, t\u00eb re. Ja edhe nj\u00eb vend ku njeriu ende s\u2019e ka dominuar natyr\u00ebn!<\/p>\n

I shkunda k\u00ebpuc\u00ebt te pragu i pubit e nd\u00ebrkoh\u00eb nxeht\u00ebsia q\u00eb vinte nga brenda m\u00eb p\u00ebrsh\u00ebndeti e para. Fytyra s\u00eb pari m\u00eb mori nj\u00eb shtres\u00eb lag\u00ebshtie, pastaj u qet\u00ebsua. E kisha l\u00ebn\u00eb t\u00eb takohesha me nj\u00eb mik. At\u00ebmosfera ishte e gjall\u00eb, muzika e zhurmshme dhe t\u00eb pranishit t\u00eb bukur, shumica t\u00eb rinj. T\u00eb bukura sidomos ishin femrat. Duke pir\u00eb birr\u00eb vend\u00ebse, na u bashkua nj\u00eb i njohur i mikut tim. I gjat\u00eb, af\u00ebr mosh\u00ebs 30, lart i veshur me k\u00ebmish\u00eb dhe nj\u00eb xhemper t\u00eb \u00e7elur, posht\u00eb me xhinse dhe k\u00ebpuc\u00eb p\u00ebr stin\u00eb t\u00eb ftohta. Her\u00ebher\u00eb dilte jasht\u00eb t\u00eb pinte duhan. I kishte vetullat e d\u00ebndura, mjekr\u00ebn pak\u00ebz t\u00eb l\u00ebshuar. Muhabeti na ecte mir\u00eb t\u00eb treve, ishte i mbushur me shaka.<\/p>\n

M\u00eb impresionoi m\u00eb s\u00eb shumti q\u00ebndrimi i t\u00eb njohurit t\u00eb mikut tim. Ishte q\u00ebndrim i mbushur me entuzias\u00ebm. N\u00eb at\u00eb trup t\u00eb tij t\u00eb madh, me goxha muskuj, ai entuziaz\u00ebm merrte edhe m\u00eb shum\u00eb pesh\u00eb. T\u00eb ngjante si ndonj\u00eb boksier i m\u00ebsuar me triumfe duelesh. N\u00ebn vetullat e tij, entuziazmi merrte edhe ngjyr\u00eb burr\u00ebrie. Kur u ndam\u00eb, von\u00eb at\u00eb mbr\u00ebmje, shkova me nj\u00ebfar\u00eb ndjenje q\u00eb ai njeri, me at\u00eb entuzias\u00ebm e vet\u00ebbesim, do t\u00eb triumfonte jo vet\u00ebm n\u00eb boks, por edhe n\u00eb \u00e7do duel tjet\u00ebr po t\u2019i rrekej. Era e ashp\u00ebr d\u00ebgjohej s\u00ebrish rrug\u00ebs. Tamam, t\u00ebr\u00ebsisht e drejt\u00eb, mendoja – q\u00eb nj\u00eb ambienti t\u00eb ashp\u00ebr t\u00eb k\u00ebtill\u00eb mund t\u2019i b\u00ebjn\u00eb ball\u00eb k\u00ebsi karakateresh t\u00eb forta njeriu.<\/p>\n

Her\u00ebn tjet\u00ebr u takuam fare rast\u00ebsisht gjersa po pija nj\u00eb kafe mesdite, po sipas rutin\u00ebs vend\u00ebse. Kishte q\u00eblluar q\u00eb edhe grupi i personave me t\u00eb cil\u00ebt rrija — ishim njohur nd\u00ebrkoh\u00eb — ta njihnin at\u00eb. P\u00ebr habin\u00eb time t\u00eb madhe, kur u ul me ne, m\u00eb b\u00ebhej si krejt tjet\u00ebr njeri. Pamja imponuese fizike e asaj nate sikur nuk ishte m\u00eb e zonja ta \u00e7onte as edhe nj\u00eb kafe t\u00eb vog\u00ebl. Dora i dridhej duke e \u00e7uar filxhanin te buz\u00ebt. Entuziasmi i ishte mbuluar me droj\u00eb e ngurt\u00ebsi. Z\u00ebri i dob\u00ebt dhe i thart\u00eb shp\u00ebrfaqte nj\u00eb bot\u00eb t\u00eb brendshme t\u00eb pezullt. Pyesja: P\u00ebrse? \u00c7far\u00eb kishte ndodhur?<\/p>\n

Nj\u00ebri i mosh\u00ebs s\u00eb p\u00ebraf\u00ebrt, ndoshta pak m\u00eb i ri, e shtynte karroc\u00ebn e vajz\u00ebs, f\u00ebmij\u00ebs s\u00eb tij t\u00eb par\u00eb. Gruaja zgatavelle mbante nj\u00eb qese n\u00eb dor\u00eb. Shkonin te v\u00ebllai i tij, kunati i saj. Dita ishte me diell. Ai filloi t\u2019i fliste q\u00eb nga larg mikut tim me t\u00eb cilnin ecnim n\u00eb drejtim t\u00eb tyre, trotuarit. E folura e tij ishte disi mekanike, e pakoncentruar. Dhe mbi t\u00eb gjitha, fytyra ia manifestone nj\u00eb lloj acarimi. Buza i dridhej. Pyesja: P\u00ebrse? \u00c7\u2019dometh\u00ebnie ka?<\/p>\n

E b\u00ebra gabimin e pafalsh\u00ebm q\u00eb i thash\u00eb dikujt, n\u00eb rregull, mund t\u00eb na bashk\u00ebngjitet mua dhe mikes me t\u00eb cil\u00ebn po rrija. Kur erdhi ai, kjo shpesh nd\u00ebrhynte p\u00ebr t\u00eb m\u00ebnjanuar tem\u00ebn duke shtyr\u00eb nj\u00eb t\u00eb re e krejt t\u00eb ndryshme. Mund t\u00eb bisedonim vet\u00ebm p\u00ebr ndonj\u00eb tem\u00eb t\u00eb p\u00ebrgjithshme sporti ose politike nd\u00ebrkomb\u00ebtare. Nj\u00eb tjet\u00ebr mik, gjithmon\u00eb na udh\u00ebzonte se \u00e7far\u00eb t\u2019i thoshim miqve tjer\u00eb, ku kishim qen\u00eb, pse u takuam n\u00eb at\u00eb koh\u00eb. Mij\u00ebra, mij\u00ebra, p\u00ebrligjje, rrena t\u00eb vogla, justifikime. P\u00ebrse? Si mund t\u00eb shpjegohet?<\/p>\n

Mendoj se e pata gjetur p\u00ebrgjigjien vet\u00ebm pas disa udh\u00ebhetimesh.<\/p>\n

Rastet e m\u00ebsip\u00ebrme kishin komplekse personale, t\u00eb patrajtuara: aft\u00ebsit\u00eb, origjin\u00ebn, pamjen, imazhin, etj.<\/p>\n

Askush nuk merr pjes\u00eb n\u00eb secilin rreth shoq\u00ebror nj\u00ebsoj, askund n\u00eb bot\u00eb. Secili krijon n\u00eb nj\u00eb rreth shoq\u00ebror nj\u00eb rol i cili pastaj \u00ebsht\u00eb v\u00ebshtir\u00eb t\u00eb modelohet. Dallimet n\u00eb role b\u00ebhen t\u00eb dukshme at\u00ebher\u00eb kur dy ose m\u00eb shum\u00eb rrethe ku individi merr pjes\u00eb takohen, gjersa ai mundohet t\u2019u p\u00ebrshtatet roleve t\u00eb tij n\u00eb rrethet origjinale shoq\u00ebrore. E kur dallimet jan\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00ebdha, performanca b\u00ebhet nj\u00eb lloj skene teatrale: sjellje e papritshme, ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb e paarsyeshme, ndjenj\u00eb turp\u00ebrimi etj.<\/p>\n

K\u00ebto dallime jan\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00ebdha shpesh me shqiptar\u00ebt, dometh\u00ebn\u00eb si k\u00ebta m\u00eb lart\u00eb(a ke takuar ti njer\u00ebz t\u00eb k\u00ebtill\u00eb?), pasi roli q\u00eb marrin, roli q\u00eb i jepin vetes n\u00eb nj\u00eb rreth shoq\u00ebror — identiteti i tyre — nuk krijohet aq nga brenda, sa nga jasht\u00eb. Vetja varet nga nj\u00eb llogaritje se si perceptohet nga t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt dhe krijon mbi t\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Kur k\u00ebtij identiteti perceptimor i shtohen komplekset e patrajtuara, at\u00ebher\u00eb shfaqet shqiptari q\u00eb dridhet: me z\u00ebrin e tij t\u00eb paqet\u00eb, fytyr\u00ebn e acaruar, dor\u00ebn q\u00eb s\u2019mund ta mbaj\u00eb drejt, etj. Sjellja e tij b\u00ebhet teatrale sepse n\u00eb kok\u00ebn e vet \u00ebsht\u00eb duke pyetur: \u00e7\u2019po mendojn\u00eb p\u00ebr mua, p\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb gj\u00ebn\u00eb time, etj.<\/p>\n

\u00cbsht\u00eb m\u00ebkat, \u00ebsht\u00eb gjithashtu munges\u00eb informacioni, sepse nuk ka asgj\u00eb m\u00eb t\u00eb paqen\u00eb dhe m\u00eb t\u00eb pasigurt se nj\u00eb identitet q\u00eb krijohet mbi perceptimet e t\u00eb tjer\u00ebve e jo mbi mendimet e q\u00ebndrimet vetanake, sepse secili kompleks me siguri nuk do t\u00eb shihej aspak i k\u00ebtill\u00eb nga njer\u00ebzit tjer\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Nuk do t\u00eb na shkonte n\u00eb mendje, por del se, kudo, jeta e njeriut ndikohet e vuan prej gj\u00ebrash q\u00eb n\u00eb pamje t\u00eb par\u00eb na duken ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb thjesht absurde. Dhe t\u00eb dhemb q\u00eb jeta e shum\u00eb shqiptar\u00ebve \u00ebsht\u00eb e rrethuar gjithkund me k\u00ebsi lloj brisht\u00ebsie sikur t\u00eb mos mjaftonin t\u00eb gjitha rrethanat tjera t\u00eb pafavorshme t\u00eb tyre si shteti i dob\u00ebt, puna e dob\u00ebt. Ndihmon s\u00eb paku q\u00eb klima n\u00eb p\u00ebrgjith\u00ebsi \u00ebsht\u00eb duksh\u00ebm m\u00eb e but\u00eb, m\u00eb p\u00ebrk\u00ebdhel\u00ebse, sesa m\u00eb pati dh\u00ebn\u00eb p\u00ebrshtypjen ajo nat\u00eb e par\u00eb dimri me er\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb grinte.<\/p>\n

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*Dr.Sc.Miljo Ambien (pseudonim) drejton nj\u00eb kilinik\u00eb analitike n\u00eb shtetin e Michiganit. \u00cbsht\u00eb shqiptaro-amerikan i gjenerat\u00ebs s\u00eb tret\u00eb. Udh\u00ebtimet e viteve t\u00eb fundit n\u00eb hap\u00ebsirat e banuara me shqiptar\u00eb n\u00eb Ballkan e kan\u00eb frym\u00ebzuar t\u00eb shkruaj\u00eb. At\u00eb e mahnit identiteti i brisht\u00eb i shqiptar\u00ebve – q\u00eb p\u00ebrpiqet ta kuptoj\u00eb.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n

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Jeta e njeriut ndikohet e vuan prej gj\u00ebrash q\u00eb n\u00eb pamje t\u00eb par\u00eb na duken ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb absurde. Disa shembuj t\u00eb p\u00ebrditsh\u00ebm shqiptar\u00eb. Kisha ardhur rishtazi n\u00eb Prishtin\u00eb, n\u00eb udh\u00ebtimin tim t\u00eb par\u00eb, dhe ishte dim\u00ebr. Fryente er\u00eb e that\u00eb ngulmuese q\u00eb arrinte t\u00eb t\u00eb prekte gjer n\u00eb eshtra. Era krijonte nj\u00eb z\u00eb q\u00eb n\u00eb fund […]<\/p>","protected":false},"author":310,"featured_media":12217,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[13],"tags":[1727,2392],"ppma_author":[322],"class_list":["post-4373","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-analize","tag-shqiptaret","tag-udhepershkrim"],"authors":[{"term_id":322,"user_id":310,"is_guest":0,"slug":"miljo-ambien","display_name":"Miljo Ambien","avatar_url":{"url":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/10\/mijo-ambien1469583240.jpg","url2x":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/10\/mijo-ambien1469583240.jpg"},"user_url":"","last_name":"Ambien","first_name":"Miljo","description":"Miljo Ambien \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb personazh fiktiv ose i v\u00ebrtet\u00eb - nj\u00eb jabanxhi i cili rr\u00ebfen p\u00ebr p\u00ebrjetimet e tija n\u00eb Kosov\u00eb. "}],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4373","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/310"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=4373"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4373\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12218,"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4373\/revisions\/12218"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/12217"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=4373"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=4373"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=4373"},{"taxonomy":"author","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/ppma_author?post=4373"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}