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Fragment i shk\u00ebputun nga novela\u00a0The Bluest Eye<\/em>, e shkrueme n\u00eb vitin 1970 nga autorja amerikane Toni Morrison.<\/p>\n

Pecola, nji vajz\u00eb afro-amerikane njimb\u00ebdhet\u00eb vje\u00e7are d\u00ebshiron me i pas\u00eb syt\u00eb e kalt\u00ebr. E varf\u00ebr, e p\u00ebrqeshun prej moshatar\u00ebve, e abuzueme seksualisht prej bab\u00ebs t\u2019vet Cholly-it, e neglizhueme prej nan\u00ebs t\u2019vet Zonj\u00ebs Breedlove, Pecola mbetet n\u2019dor\u00ebn e mashtruesit Zotni Soaphead, duke u ngush\u00ebllue me iluzionin q\u00eb syt\u00eb e kalt\u00ebr do t\u2019ia sigurojn\u00eb dashunin\u00eb e mungueme prej njer\u00ebzve q\u00eb e rrethojn\u00eb n\u00eb nji shoqni thelbsisht raciste.<\/p>\n

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P\u00ebr t\u2019sat\u00ebn her\u00eb gjat\u00eb nji minute ke me shikue mbrenda asaj gjaje t\u2019vjet\u00ebr?<\/em><\/p>\n

Nuk kam shikue p\u00ebr nji koh\u00eb t\u2019gjat\u00eb.<\/p>\n

E ke ba.<\/em><\/p>\n

Edhe \u00e7ka tani? N\u00ebse due, mundem me shikue.<\/p>\n

Nuk thash\u00eb q\u00eb s\u2019mundesh. Ve\u00e7 nuk po e di pse t\u2019duhet me shikue \u00e7do minut\u00eb. Nuk jan\u00eb tue shkue kurrkund.<\/em><\/p>\n

K\u00ebt\u00ea e di. Ve\u00e7 po due me shikue.<\/p>\n

Mos je e frik\u00ebsueme q\u00eb munden me ik\u00eb?<\/em><\/p>\n

Normalisht q\u00eb jo. Qysh munden me ik\u00eb?<\/p>\n

T\u2019kaluemit kan\u00eb ik\u00eb.<\/em><\/p>\n

Nuk kan\u00eb ik\u00eb. Kan\u00eb ndryshue.<\/p>\n

Me ik\u00eb. Me ndryshue. E cili asht dallimi?<\/em><\/p>\n

I madh bile. Zotni Soaphead ka than\u00eb q\u00eb k\u00ebta kan\u00eb me zgjat\u00eb p\u00ebrgjithmon\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Njiher\u00eb e p\u00ebrgjithmon\u00eb Amen?<\/em><\/p>\n

Po, n\u00ebse don me e dit\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Ani, nuk ke nevoj\u00eb me ting\u00ebllue si e men\u00e7me kur fol\u00eb me mue.<\/em><\/p>\n

Nuk jam tue u ba e men\u00e7me. Ti vet\u2019 e nise.<\/p>\n

Un\u00eb ve\u00e7 po due me ba di\u00e7ka tjet\u00ebr p\u00ebrve\u00e7se me t\u2019shikue ty qysh ia ke ngul\u00eb syt\u00eb k\u00ebsaj pasqyre.<\/em><\/p>\n

Je xheloze.<\/p>\n

Nuk jam.<\/em><\/p>\n

Je. Ke qejf me i pas\u00eb edhe ti.<\/p>\n

Ha. A thue qysh isha duk\u00eb me sy t\u2019kalt\u00ebr?<\/em><\/p>\n

Jo edhe qaq.<\/p>\n

N\u00ebse po don me vazhdue k\u00ebshtu, un\u00eb ma mir\u00eb me shkue.<\/em><\/p>\n

Jo. Mos shko. \u00c7ka ke d\u00ebshir\u00eb me ba?<\/p>\n

Kishim mujt\u00eb me dal\u00eb jasht\u00eb me luejt\u00eb.<\/em><\/p>\n

Por asht shum\u00eb nxeht\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Mundesh me e marr\u00eb pasqyr\u00ebn tande t\u2019vjet\u00ebr. Fute n\u2019xhepin e palltos, edhe k\u00ebshtu mundesh me e shikue veten posht\u00eb e nalt\u00eb rrug\u00ebs.<\/em><\/p>\n

Phaa! Kurr\u00eb s\u2019ma kish marr\u00eb mendja q\u00eb ke me u ba kaq xheloze.<\/p>\n

Aii, boll ma!<\/em><\/p>\n

Je.<\/p>\n

\u00c7ka jam?<\/em><\/p>\n

Xheloze.<\/p>\n

Mir\u00eb. Pra jam xheloze.<\/em><\/p>\n

A po e sheh. T\u2019thash\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Jo. Un\u00eb t\u2019thash\u00eb ty.<\/em><\/p>\n

A jan\u00eb p\u00ebrnjimend t\u2019mir\u00eb?<\/em><\/p>\n

Po.\u00a0P\u00ebrnjimend t\u2019mir\u00eb.<\/em><\/p>\n

A ve\u00e7 \u201cp\u00ebrnjimend t\u2019mir\u00eb\u201d?<\/p>\n

P\u00ebrnjimend, sinqerisht, shum\u00eb t\u2019mir\u00eb.<\/em><\/p>\n

P\u00ebrnjimend, sinqerisht, kalt\u00ebrsisht t\u2019mir\u00eb?<\/p>\n

Oh, Zot! Je e \u00e7mendun.<\/em><\/p>\n

Nuk jam!<\/p>\n

S\u2019e mendova me at\u00eb kuptim.<\/em><\/p>\n

E me cilin pra?<\/p>\n

Hajde! Asht shum\u00eb nxeht\u00eb k\u00ebtu.<\/em><\/p>\n

Prit nji minut\u00eb. S\u2019po mundem me i gjet\u00eb k\u00ebpuc\u00ebt.<\/p>\n

Qe ku jan\u00eb.<\/em><\/p>\n

Oh. Falemnderit.<\/p>\n

Pasqyr\u00ebn a e more?<\/em><\/p>\n

Po lo\u00e7k\u00eb\u2026<\/p>\n

Hajde shkojm\u00eb pra\u2026 Ouu!<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00c7ka?<\/p>\n

Dielli asht shum\u00eb i ndritsh\u00ebm. Po m\u2019i vret syt\u00eb.<\/em><\/p>\n

T\u2019mit\u00eb jo. As q\u00eb po i l\u00ebvizi qepallat. Mundem me shikue drejt e n\u2019diell.<\/p>\n

Mos e ban.<\/em><\/p>\n

E pse jo? Nuk po m\u2019vret. As q\u00eb kam nevoj\u00eb me i l\u00ebviz\u00eb qepallat.<\/p>\n

Epo, prap\u00eb se prap\u00eb l\u00ebvizi. Ashtu qysh ia ke ngul\u00eb syt\u00eb diellit po m\u2019ban me u ndie qesharake.<\/em><\/p>\n

Qysh qesharake?<\/p>\n

S\u2019e di.<\/em><\/p>\n

Po, e din. Qysh qesharake?<\/p>\n

T\u2019thash\u00eb q\u00eb s\u2019e di.<\/em><\/p>\n

E pse s\u2019po m\u2019shikon mue kur po e thue k\u00ebt\u00ea? Po shikon me sy t\u2019l\u00ebshuem teposht\u00eb, bash si Zonja Breedlove.<\/p>\n

Zonja Breedlove t\u2019sheh me sy t\u2019l\u00ebshuem teposht\u00eb?<\/em><\/p>\n

Po. Tash po. Prej se q\u00eb i kam ba syt\u00eb e kalt\u00ebr, gjat\u00eb tan\u00eb koh\u00ebs e largon shikimin prej meje. A thue asht xheloze edhe ajo?<\/p>\n

Mundet me ndodh\u00eb. Jan\u00eb t\u2019bukur, ta dish.<\/em><\/p>\n

E di. E ka ba nji pun\u00eb p\u00ebrnjimend t\u2019mir\u00eb. Krejt po jan\u00eb xheloz\u00eb. Sa her\u00eb q\u00eb po e shikoj ndojkend, ata bahen q\u00eb nuk m\u2019v\u00ebrejn\u00eb.<\/p>\n

A thue p\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00ea kurrkush nuk t\u2019ka than\u00eb sa t\u2019bukur jan\u00eb?<\/em><\/p>\n

Me siguri q\u00eb po. A mundesh m\u2019e imagjinue? Di\u00e7ka e till\u00eb me i ndodh\u00eb nji njeri, edhe kurrkush, bash hi\u00e7 kurrkush mos me ia p\u00ebrmend\u00eb? Krejt po mundohen me u sht\u00ee kinse nuk po i shohin. A s\u2019asht kjo qesharake?… Thash\u00eb, a s\u2019asht qesharake?<\/p>\n

Po.<\/em><\/p>\n

Ti je e vetmja q\u00eb m\u2019thue sa t\u2019bukur jan\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Po.<\/em><\/p>\n

Ti je nji shoqe e v\u00ebrtet\u00eb. M\u2019fal q\u00eb t\u2019ngacmova ma her\u00ebt. E kam fjal\u00ebn, q\u00eb t\u2019thash\u00eb je xheloze edhe krejt tjerat.<\/p>\n

S\u2019ka gja.<\/em><\/p>\n

Jo. P\u00ebnjimend. Ti je shoqja jem ma e mir\u00eb. Pse nuk t\u2019kam njoft\u00eb ma her\u00ebt?<\/p>\n

Nuk ke pas\u00eb nevoj\u00eb p\u00ebr mue ma her\u00ebt.<\/em><\/p>\n

Nuk kam pas\u00eb nevoj\u00eb p\u00ebr ty?<\/p>\n

Po mendoj\u2026 ke qen\u00eb aq e palumtun ma her\u00ebt. Ma merr mendja as q\u00eb m\u2019ke vrejt\u00eb.<\/em><\/p>\n

Ke t\u2019drejt\u00eb. Kam qen\u00eb shum\u00eb e vetmueme p\u00ebr me pas\u00eb shoqe. E ti ke qene k\u00ebtu. Bash para syve t\u2019mi.<\/p>\n

Jo, zem\u00ebr. Bash mbas syve t\u2019tu.<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00c7ka?<\/p>\n

\u00c7ka po mendon Maureen p\u00ebr syt\u00eb e tu?<\/em><\/p>\n

Nuk ka than\u00eb kurrgja. A mos t\u2019ka than\u00eb ty gja p\u00ebr ta?<\/p>\n

Jo. Kurrgja.<\/em><\/p>\n

A t\u2019p\u00eblqen Maureen?<\/p>\n

Oh. E mir\u00eb asht, si nji vajz\u00eb gjysm\u00eb e bardh\u00eb.<\/em><\/p>\n

E di \u00e7ka po mendon. Po, a kishe pas\u00eb d\u00ebshir\u00eb me qen\u00eb shoqja e saj? Po mendoj, a kishe pas\u00eb d\u00ebshir\u00eb me kalue koh\u00eb me t\u00ea, ose \u00e7kado?<\/p>\n

Jo.<\/em><\/p>\n

As un\u00eb. Ve\u00e7se s\u2019ka dyshim q\u00eb asht e famshme.<\/p>\n

E kush don me qen\u00eb e famshme?<\/em><\/p>\n

Un\u00eb jo.<\/p>\n

As un\u00eb.<\/em><\/p>\n

Sidoqoft\u00eb, ti edhe ashtu s\u2019kishe mujt\u00eb me u ba e famshme. As q\u00eb shkon n\u00eb shkoll\u00eb.<\/p>\n

As ti.<\/em><\/p>\n

E di. Po dikur kam shkue.<\/p>\n

E pse e ke ndal\u00eb?<\/em><\/p>\n

P\u00ebr shkak t\u2019tyne.<\/p>\n

P\u00ebr shkak t\u2019kujt?<\/em><\/p>\n

S\u2019e di. Mbas dit\u00ebs t\u2019par\u00eb q\u00eb kam shkue n\u2019shkoll\u00eb me syt\u00eb e kalt\u00ebr. T\u2019nes\u00ebrmen e kan\u00eb thirr\u00eb Zonj\u00ebn Breedlove. Tash ma nuk shkoj. Po s\u2019po m\u00ebrzitem.<\/p>\n

Jo?<\/em><\/p>\n

Jo. Ve\u00e7 jan\u00eb paragjykues, kjo asht e tana.<\/p>\n

Po, s\u2019ka dyshim q\u00eb jan\u00eb paragjykues.<\/em><\/p>\n

Jan\u00eb paragjykues ve\u00e7 pse i kam ba syt\u00eb e kalt\u00ebr, ma t\u2019kalt\u00ebr se t\u2019tyne.<\/p>\n

E v\u00ebrtet\u00eb.<\/em><\/p>\n

Jan\u00eb ma t\u2019kalt\u00ebr, apo jo?<\/p>\n

Oh, po. Shum\u00eb ma t\u2019kalt\u00ebr.<\/em><\/p>\n

Ma t\u2019kalt\u00ebr se t\u2019Joanna-s?<\/p>\n

Shum\u00eb ma t\u2019kalt\u00ebr se t\u2019Joanna-s.<\/em><\/p>\n

Ma t\u2019kalt\u00ebr edhe se t\u2019Michelena-s?<\/p>\n

Shum\u00eb ma t\u2019kalt\u00ebr se t\u2019Michelena-s.<\/em><\/p>\n

E kam dit\u00eb. A t\u2019ka than\u00eb gja Michelena p\u00ebr syt\u00eb e mi?<\/p>\n

Jo. Kurrgja.<\/em><\/p>\n

E ti, a i ke than\u00eb gja asaj?<\/p>\n

Jo.<\/em><\/p>\n

E qysh?<\/p>\n

\u00c7ka qysh?<\/em><\/p>\n

Qysh bahet q\u00eb s\u2019flet me kurrkend?<\/p>\n

Flas me ty.<\/em><\/p>\n

P\u00ebrve\u00e7 meje.<\/p>\n

Nuk m\u2019p\u00eblqen kurrkush p\u00ebrve\u00e7 teje.<\/em><\/p>\n

Ku jeton?<\/p>\n

T\u2019kam tregue nji her\u00eb.<\/em><\/p>\n

E nana jote qysh e ka emrin?<\/p>\n

Pse po p\u00ebrzihesh n\u2019pun\u00eb t\u2019mia?<\/em><\/p>\n

Ve\u00e7 pata kurreshtje. Ti s\u2019flet me kurrkend. Ti nuk shkon n\u00eb shkoll\u00eb. Edhe kurrkush s\u2019flet me ty.<\/p>\n

E qysh po e din q\u00eb kurrkush s\u2019flet me mue?<\/em><\/p>\n

Po s\u2019flasin. Kur je n\u2019shpi me mue, as Zonja Breedlove nuk t\u2019thot\u00eb gja. Kurr\u00eb, hi\u00e7. Ndonjiher\u00eb bile dyshoj n\u00ebse t\u2019sheh.<\/p>\n

E pse s\u2019kish me m\u2019pa?<\/em><\/p>\n

S\u2019e di. Ajo gati sa nuk t\u2019p\u00ebrfill\u00eb hi\u00e7.<\/p>\n

Ndoshta nuk po ndjehet bash mir\u00eb qyshse ka shkue Cholly.<\/em><\/p>\n

Oh, po. Ke t\u2019drejt\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Me siguri q\u00eb i mungon.<\/em><\/p>\n

S\u2019e di pse kish me i mungue. Krejt \u00e7ka ai ka ba ka qen\u00eb me u deh\u00eb edhe me e rreh\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Epo, ti e din qysh jan\u00eb t\u2019rritunit ma.<\/em><\/p>\n

Po. Jo. Qysh jan\u00eb?<\/p>\n

Epo, me siguri q\u00eb prap\u00ebseprap\u00eb e ka dasht\u00eb.<\/em><\/p>\n

AT\u00ca?<\/p>\n

Sigurisht. Pse jo? Sidoqoft\u00eb, edhe n\u00ebse s\u2019e ka dasht\u00eb, e ka lan\u00eb me ia ba sa e sa her\u00eb.<\/em><\/p>\n

Ajo s\u2019asht kurrgja.<\/p>\n

Qysh po e din?<\/em><\/p>\n

I kam pa gjat\u00eb tan\u00eb koh\u00ebs. Asaj s\u2019i ka p\u00eblqye hi\u00e7.<\/p>\n

E pse pra e ka lan\u00eb me ia ba?<\/em><\/p>\n

Se ai e ka detyrue.<\/p>\n

E qysh mundet dikush me t\u2019detyrue me ba di\u00e7ka t’till\u00eb?<\/em><\/p>\n

Leht\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Oh, p\u00ebrnjimend? Qysh leht\u00eb?<\/em><\/p>\n

Thjesht t\u2019detyrojn\u00eb, ashtu.<\/p>\n

Po mendoj q\u00eb ke t\u2019drejt\u00eb. Edhe Cholly ka mujt\u00eb me e detyrue \u00e7dokend me ba \u00e7kado.<\/em><\/p>\n

S\u2019ka mujt\u00eb.<\/p>\n

T\u2019ka detyrue ty, apo jo?<\/em><\/p>\n

MBYLLE!<\/p>\n

Ve\u00e7 isha tue t\u2019nguc\u00eb.<\/em><\/p>\n

MBYLLE!<\/p>\n

MIR\u00cb, MIR\u00cb.<\/em><\/p>\n

Ve\u00e7 ka provue, a u ba? S\u2019ka ba kurrgja tjet\u00ebr. A po m\u2019ndigjon?<\/p>\n

Tue e mbyll\u00eb jam.<\/em><\/p>\n

Ban mir\u00eb. Nuk m\u2019p\u00eblqejn\u00eb k\u00ebto lloj bisedash.<\/p>\n

Thash\u00eb q\u00eb jam tue e mbyll\u00eb.<\/em><\/p>\n

Ti gjithmon\u00eb fol\u00eb pis. Sidoqoft\u00eb, kush t\u2019ka tregue p\u00ebr at\u00ea?<\/p>\n

Po harroj.<\/em><\/p>\n

Sammy?<\/p>\n

Jo. Ti.<\/em><\/p>\n

Un\u00eb jo.<\/p>\n

Po ti. Ke than\u00eb q\u00eb ai ka provue me ta ba sa ke qen\u00eb tue fjet\u00eb n\u2019shtrat.<\/em><\/p>\n

A po e sheh! Ti as q\u00eb e di \u00e7ka je tue fol\u00eb. Ka ndodh\u00eb sa kam qen\u00eb tue i la en\u00ebt.<\/p>\n

Ah, po. En\u00ebt.<\/em><\/p>\n

E vetme. N\u2019kuzhin\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Epo, m\u2019vjen mir\u00eb q\u00eb s\u2019e ke lan\u00eb.<\/em><\/p>\n

Po.<\/p>\n

Apo?<\/em><\/p>\n

Apo, \u00e7ka?<\/p>\n

E ke lan\u00eb.<\/em><\/p>\n

Tash kush asht e \u00e7menduna?<\/p>\n

Si duket un\u00eb jam. \u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n

S\u2019ka dyshim q\u00eb je.<\/p>\n

Edhe pse\u2026<\/em><\/p>\n

Hajde. Vazhdo. \u00c7ka edhe pse?<\/p>\n

Po mendoj qysh kish me qen\u00eb?<\/em><\/p>\n

E tmerrshme.<\/p>\n

P\u00ebrnjimend?<\/em><\/p>\n

Po. E tmerrshme.<\/p>\n

E pse pra s\u2019i ke tregue Zonj\u00ebs Breedlove?<\/em><\/p>\n

I kam tregue!<\/p>\n

S\u2019e kam fjal\u00ebn p\u00ebr her\u00ebn e par\u00eb, po p\u00ebr her\u00ebn e dyt\u00eb. Kur ke qen\u00eb tue fjet\u00eb n\u2019shtrat.<\/em><\/p>\n

S\u2019kam qen\u00eb tue fjet\u00eb! Kam qen\u00eb tue lexue!<\/p>\n

Ani, s\u2019ke nevoj\u00eb me b\u00ebrtit\u00eb.<\/em><\/p>\n

Ti s\u2019kupton kurrgja, apo jo? Ajo as q\u00eb m\u2019ka besue kur i kam tregue.<\/p>\n

Pra kjo asht pse s\u2019i ke tregue p\u00ebr her\u00ebn e dyt\u00eb?<\/em><\/p>\n

As at\u00ebher\u00eb s\u2019kish me m\u2019besue.<\/p>\n

Ke t\u2019drejt\u00eb. S\u2019ka kurrfar\u00eb t\u2019mire me i tregue kur ajo s\u2019t\u2019beson.<\/em><\/p>\n

Kjo asht \u00e7ka jam tue provue me e ba k\u00ebt\u00ea kryet tand t\u2019trash\u00eb me kuptue.<\/p>\n

Mir\u00eb. Tash p\u2019e kuptoj. Pothuejse.<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00c7ka po don me than\u00eb me pothuejse?<\/p>\n

Sot po tregohesh p\u00ebrnjimend e posht\u00ebr.<\/em><\/p>\n

Ti po vazhdon me than\u00eb gjana t\u2019poshtra. Kam mendue q\u00eb je shoqja jem.<\/p>\n

Jam. Jam.<\/em><\/p>\n

At\u00ebher\u00eb m\u2019le rehat ma p\u00ebr Cholly-in.<\/p>\n

MIR\u00cb.<\/em><\/p>\n

Edhe ashtu, s\u2019ka \u00e7ka me u than\u00eb ma p\u00ebr t\u00ea. Tash ma ka shkue.<\/p>\n

Po. Bash \u00e7lirim.<\/em><\/p>\n

Po. Bash \u00e7lirim.<\/p>\n

Dhe Sammy ka shkue, gjithashtu.<\/em><\/p>\n

Edhe Sammy ka shkue, gjithashtu.<\/p>\n

K\u00ebshtu q\u00eb s\u2019ka kurrfar\u00eb t\u2019mire me fol\u00eb ma p\u00ebr at\u00eb \u00e7ka ka ndodh\u00eb. Po due me than\u00eb p\u00ebr ta.<\/em><\/p>\n

Jo. Bash kurrfar\u00eb t\u2019mire.<\/p>\n

Tash ma gjith\u00e7ka ka p\u00ebrfundue.<\/em><\/p>\n

Po.<\/p>\n

Edhe ti s\u2019ke nevoj\u00eb me u tut\u00eb ma prej Cholly-t.<\/em><\/p>\n

Jo.<\/p>\n

Ka qen\u00eb e tmerrshme, apo jo?<\/em><\/p>\n

Po.<\/p>\n

Edhe hera e dyt\u00eb?<\/em><\/p>\n

Po.<\/p>\n

P\u00ebrnjimend? Edhe hera e dyt\u00eb?<\/em><\/p>\n

M\u2019le rehat! Ban mir\u00eb me m\u2019lan\u00eb rehat.<\/p>\n

A s\u2019mundesh me e durue nji hajgare? S\u2019e pata p\u00ebrnjimend.<\/em><\/p>\n

Nuk m\u2019p\u00eblqen me fol\u00eb p\u00ebr gjana t\u2019pista.<\/p>\n

As mue. Hajde flasim di\u00e7ka tjet\u00ebr.<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00c7ka? P\u00ebr \u00e7ka tjet\u00ebr me fol\u00eb?<\/p>\n

Pse, syt\u00eb e tu. \u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n

Ah, po. Syt\u00eb e mi. Syt\u00eb e mi t\u2019kalt\u00ebr. M\u2019le t\u2019i shoh prap\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Shikoji sa t\u2019bukur jan\u00eb.<\/em><\/p>\n

Po. Bahen ma t\u2019bukur e ma t\u2019bukur sa her\u00eb q\u00eb i shikoj.<\/p>\n

Jan\u00eb ma t\u2019bukurit q\u00eb i kam pa ndonjiher\u00eb.<\/em><\/p>\n

P\u00ebrnjimend?<\/p>\n

Oh, po.<\/em><\/p>\n

Ma t\u2019bukur se qielli?<\/p>\n

Oh, po. Shum\u00eb ma t\u2019bukur se qielli.<\/em><\/p>\n

Ma t\u2019bukur se syt\u00eb n\u2019librin \u201cAlice \u2013 dhe \u2013 Jerry\u201d?<\/p>\n

Oh, po. Shum\u00eb ma t\u2019bukur se syt\u00eb n\u2019librin \u201cAlice \u2013 dhe \u2013 Jerry\u201d.<\/em><\/p>\n

Ma t\u2019bukur edhe se t\u2019Joanna-s?<\/p>\n

Oh, po. Bile edhe ma t\u2019kalt\u00ebr.<\/em><\/p>\n

Ma t\u2019kalt\u00ebr se t\u2019Michelena-s?<\/p>\n

Po<\/em>.<\/p>\n

A je e sigurt?<\/p>\n

Normalisht q\u00eb jam.<\/em><\/p>\n

Nuk po ting\u00ebllon e sigurt\u2026<\/p>\n

E sigurt jam. Ve\u00e7 n\u00ebse<\/em>\u2026<\/p>\n

\u00c7ka ve\u00e7 n\u00ebse?<\/p>\n

Oh, asgja. Isha tue mendue p\u00ebr nji grue q\u00eb e kam pa dje. S\u2019ka fjal\u00eb q\u00eb i kishte syt\u00eb e kalt\u00ebr. Por jo. Syt\u00eb e tu jan\u00eb ma t\u2019kalt\u00ebr.<\/em><\/p>\n

A je e sigurt?<\/p>\n

Po. Tash po m\u2019kujtohen. T\u2019tut\u00eb jan\u00eb ma t\u2019kalt\u00ebr.<\/em><\/p>\n

Po g\u00ebzohem.<\/p>\n

Edhe un\u00eb. E urrej me mendue q\u00eb kish mujt\u00eb me qen\u00eb dikush tjet\u00ebr me sy ma t\u2019kalt\u00ebr se ti. Jam e sigurt q\u00eb s\u2019asht kurrkush. T\u2019pakt\u00ebn jo k\u00ebndej pari.<\/em><\/p>\n

Por jo q\u00eb e din ti, apo jo? Nuk asht q\u00eb e ke pa dik\u00ea?<\/p>\n

Jo. S\u2019e kam pa.<\/em><\/p>\n

K\u00ebshtu q\u00eb mundet me qen\u00eb dikush, apo jo?<\/p>\n

Shum\u00eb zor.<\/em><\/p>\n

Por mundet. Mundet. Ti the \u201ck\u00ebndej pari\u201d. Me siguri q\u00eb kurrkush \u201ck\u00ebndej pari\u201d nuk ka sy ma t\u2019kalt\u00ebr. Po \u00e7ka p\u00ebr ndonji vend tjet\u00ebr? Edhe n\u00ebse syt\u00eb e mi jan\u00eb ma t\u2019kalt\u00ebr se t\u2019Joanna-s, edhe ma t\u2019kalt\u00ebr se t\u2019Michelena-s, edhe ma t\u2019kalt\u00ebr se t\u2019grues q\u00eb e ke pa ti, \u00e7ka n\u00ebse asht dikush, diku larg, me sy ma t\u2019kalt\u00ebr se t\u2019mit\u00eb?<\/p>\n

Mos u ban qesharake.<\/em><\/p>\n

Por mundet me qen\u00eb, apo jo?<\/p>\n

Shum\u00eb zor.<\/em><\/p>\n

Ama, paramendoje. Paramendoje nji vend larg prej k\u00ebtu. N\u00eb Cincinnati, p\u00ebr shembull, me qen\u00eb dikush me sy ma t\u2019kalt\u00ebr se t\u2019mit\u00eb? Paramendoje me qen\u00eb dy vet\u00eb me sy ma t\u2019kalt\u00ebr?<\/p>\n

Edhe \u00e7ka tani? Ke k\u00ebrkue sy t\u2019kalt\u00ebr. I ke ba syt\u00eb e kalt\u00ebr.<\/em><\/p>\n

Ai asht dasht\u00eb me i ba edhe ma t\u2019kalt\u00ebr.<\/p>\n

Kush?<\/em><\/p>\n

Zotni Soaphead.<\/p>\n

A i pate tregue \u00e7far\u00eb t\u2019kalt\u00ebrte i ke dasht\u00eb?<\/em><\/p>\n

Jo. Kam harrue.<\/p>\n

Oh. Epo, mir\u00eb.<\/em><\/p>\n

Shiko. Shiko atje. At\u00eb vajz\u00ebn. Shikoja syt\u00eb. A jan\u00eb ma t\u2019kalt\u00ebr se t\u2019mit\u00eb?<\/p>\n

Jo, s\u2019mendoj q\u00eb jan\u00eb.<\/em><\/p>\n

A shikove p\u00ebrnjimend mir\u00eb?<\/p>\n

Po.<\/em><\/p>\n

Qe, po vjen dikush. Shikoja k\u00ebtij. Shiko n\u00ebse jan\u00eb ma t\u2019kalt\u00ebr.<\/p>\n

Je tue u ba budallaqe. S\u2019e kam nd\u00ebrmend me i shikue syt\u00eb e gjith\u00eb secilit.<\/em><\/p>\n

Duhesh me e ba.<\/p>\n

Jo, nuk e baj.<\/em><\/p>\n

T\u2019lutem. N\u00ebse asht dikush me sy ma t\u2019kalt\u00ebr se un\u00eb, at\u00ebher\u00eb ndoshta asht dikush me ma t\u2019kalt\u00ebrtit sy. Ma t\u2019kalt\u00ebrtit sy n\u00eb tan\u00eb bot\u00ebn.<\/p>\n

A s\u2019asht kjo bash shum\u00eb keq?<\/em><\/p>\n

T\u2019lutem, ndihmom\u00eb me shikue.<\/p>\n

Jo.<\/em><\/p>\n

Por paramendoje n\u00ebse syt\u00eb e mi nuk jan\u00eb mjaftuesh\u00ebm t\u2019kalt\u00ebr?<\/p>\n

Mjaftuesh\u00ebm t\u2019kalt\u00ebr p\u00ebr \u00e7ka?<\/em><\/p>\n

Mjaftuesh\u00ebm t\u2019kalt\u00ebr p\u00ebr\u2026 S\u2019e di. Mjaftuesh\u00ebm t\u2019kalt\u00ebr p\u00ebr di\u00e7ka. Mjaftuesh\u00ebm t\u2019kalt\u00ebr\u2026 p\u00ebr ty!<\/p>\n

Nuk kam me luejt\u00eb ma me ty.<\/em><\/p>\n

Oh. Mos m\u2019le.<\/p>\n

Po. Po t\u2019la.<\/em><\/p>\n

Pse? A je ba nervoz me mue?<\/p>\n

Po.<\/em><\/p>\n

P\u00ebr shkak q\u00eb syt\u00eb e mi nuk jan\u00eb mjaftuesh\u00ebm t\u2019kalt\u00ebr? P\u00ebr shkak q\u00eb s\u2019i kam ma t\u2019kalt\u00ebrtit sy?<\/p>\n

Jo. P\u00ebr shkak q\u00eb po sillesh si budallaqe.<\/em><\/p>\n

Mos shko. Mos m\u2019le vet\u00ebm. A kthehesh n\u00ebse i marr?<\/p>\n

N\u00ebse merr \u00e7ka?<\/em><\/p>\n

Ma t\u2019kalt\u00ebrtit sy. At\u00ebher\u00eb, a ke me u kthye?<\/p>\n

Normalisht q\u00eb po. Jam tue u largue ve\u00e7 p\u00ebr pak.<\/em><\/p>\n

A m\u2019premton?<\/p>\n

Sigurisht. Kam me u kthye. Bash p\u00ebrpara syve t\u2019tu. \u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n

—–<\/p>\n

P\u00ebrktheu<\/strong>: Lirika Demiri<\/p>\n

*Ky p\u00ebrkthim asht kontribut ndaj projektit\u00a0TLP Citizens Corps<\/a>. P\u00ebrmbajtja e k\u00ebtij teksti nuk i reflekton medoemos politikat dhe q\u00ebndrimet zyrtare t\u00eb TLP Citizens Corps.<\/em><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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