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Dikur e nj\u00eb koh\u00eb e dashura ime ishte suedeze. Por ajo q\u00eb dua t\u00eb them k\u00ebsaj here nuk ka lidhje me t\u00eb. \u00cbsht\u00eb fjala p\u00ebr di\u00e7ka tjet\u00ebr. P\u00ebr di\u00e7ka q\u00eb duket se shqet\u00ebson arsyen ton\u00eb t\u00eb p\u00ebrbashk\u00ebt. Mund\u00ebsia p\u00ebr t\u00eb l\u00ebvizur lirsh\u00ebm dhe p\u00ebr t\u00eb mos qen\u00eb pengje t\u00eb trishtuara gjeografike. Viktima t\u00eb past\u00ebrta t\u00eb politikave q\u00eb vijn\u00eb nga t\u00eb zgjedhurit tan\u00eb t\u00eb pandershem dhe jokorrekt. Nga t\u00eb zgjedhurit tan\u00eb q\u00eb rehatohen n\u00eb kolltuqet e buta t\u00eb aeroplan\u00ebve, kur t\u00eb ju teket. Duke qen\u00eb nj\u00eb qenie e paaft\u00eb administrative gjithmon\u00eb n\u00eb mua i kam l\u00ebn\u00eb vend ndjenj\u00ebs s\u00eb p\u00ebrtacis\u00eb ndaj proceseve t\u00eb shumta burokratike. Pavet\u00ebdijsh\u00ebm kam krijuar ndjenj\u00ebn e refuzimit p\u00ebr vendet tjera. Dhe iden\u00eb se nuk e kam fare t\u00eb nevojshme, p\u00ebr t\u00eb dalur jasht\u00eb k\u00ebsaj vrime. Ku kam dashurit\u00eb. Vuajtjet. T\u00eb kaluar\u00ebn. T\u00eb ardhmen qesharake. \u00cbndrrat e deformuara apo veten time si nj\u00eb pul\u00eb pa kok\u00eb. Pra nuk e kam t\u00eb nevojshme p\u00ebr t\u00eb dalur nga ky vend, q\u00eb nuk m\u00eb b\u00ebn fare krenar. Ama bash hic. Duket se identiteti ka gjas\u00eb t\u00eb jet\u00eb nj\u00ebfar\u00eb lloj nd\u00ebshkimi. Prandaj kurr\u00eb nuk m\u00eb shkuar p\u00ebr dore t\u00eb kem n\u00eb vete ndjenj\u00ebn e thell\u00eb t\u00eb p\u00ebrkat\u00ebsis\u00eb ndaj konstrukteve t\u00eb tilla. Duket se identiteti \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb pako e pad\u00ebshirueshme n\u00eb dhom\u00ebn e fjetjes. Si nj\u00eb dhurat\u00eb fundviti. N\u00ebn m\u00ebshir\u00ebn e vullnetit ton\u00eb p\u00ebr ta hapur apo jo.<\/p>\n

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Mbaj mend se ish e dashura ime suedeze nuk mund ta merrte me mend, se do t\u00eb duhej t\u00eb prisje kat\u00ebr or\u00eb t\u00eb t\u00ebra p\u00ebr t\u00eb aplikuar p\u00ebr nj\u00eb dokument t\u00eb nevojsh\u00ebm udh\u00ebtimi. As q\u00eb dua ta quaj viz\u00eb ngase kur e quaj k\u00ebshtu sec ndjenj\u00eb nj\u00eb lloj tingulli t\u00eb nj\u00eb ideologjie fashiste. Prandaj n\u00eb shenj\u00eb mosbesimi ndaj meje (Ishte hera e par\u00eb q\u00eb nuk m\u00eb besonte) ajo deshi t\u00eb vinte me mua. Po ta shohim holl\u00eb. Na ka shkuar p\u00ebr dore q\u00eb gjithmon\u00eb t\u00eb jemi n\u00eb mbik\u00ebqyrjen e nd\u00ebrkomb\u00ebtar\u00ebve. Pa dashur t\u00eb b\u00ebhem ironik. M\u00eb kujtohej se dukej e tronditur dhe fliste me n\u00ebnat e m\u00ebrzitura e t\u00eb shtyra n\u00eb mosh\u00eb, q\u00eb sigurisht donin t\u00eb vizitonin t\u00eb af\u00ebrmit e tyre. Me pleq t\u00eb n\u00ebnshtruar para pyetjeve idiote q\u00eb vinin nga ana e pasme e nj\u00eb xhami gati t\u00eb blinduar. Me burra q\u00eb kishin hedhur n\u00eb koshin e pleh\u00ebrave kostumin e tyre t\u00eb dinjitetit. Nd\u00ebrkoh\u00eb un\u00eb sall rrija dhe prisja.<\/p>\n

Duke u ndjer\u00eb mir\u00eb q\u00eb kisha t\u00eb drejt\u00eb. Duke u ndjer\u00eb mir\u00eb q\u00eb isha i p\u00ebrjashtuar. Duke u ndjer\u00eb mir\u00eb q\u00eb nuk isha pjes\u00eb e nj\u00eb bote normale. Duke pritur n\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb p\u00ebrgjigjesha n\u00eb pyetje t\u00eb tilla si a e kisha nd\u00ebrmend t\u00eb martohesha me t\u00eb. Kur e kisha njohur. Nga e kisha njohur. Kush ishte b\u00ebr\u00eb shkaktar i njohjes son\u00eb. \u00c7far\u00eb dite kishte qen\u00eb dita e njohjes. Cili dreq kishte qeverisur n\u00eb at\u00eb dit\u00eb te njohjes son\u00eb. A do t\u00eb rrija p\u00ebrgjithmon\u00eb. A do t\u00eb kthehesha. Ku do ta theja qafen derisa i neveritur nga gjithcka q\u00eb m\u00eb plasej n\u00eb fytyr\u00eb ndjeva nj\u00eb d\u00ebshir\u00eb t\u00eb pap\u00ebrmbajtshme p\u00ebr t\u00eb cuar gjithcka n\u00eb rrot\u00eb t\u00eb sam\u00ebs. Madje edhe at\u00eb q\u00eb rrinte jasht\u00eb me duar t\u00eb lidhura e me nj\u00eb lloj q\u00ebndrimi autoritar, duke v\u00ebshtruar dise qenie t\u00eb mjera me d\u00ebshira t\u00eb p\u00ebrcudshme. E me duar t\u00eb thara nga gjaku i koh\u00ebrave t\u00eb m\u00ebhershme. N\u00eb fund t\u00eb fundit. Turpi nuk ka t\u00eb b\u00ebj\u00eb asgj\u00eb me nacionalizmin. Nuk ka t\u00eb b\u00ebj\u00eb asgj\u00eb me demokracin\u00eb. Nuk ka asnj\u00eb lidhje me kombet. E as me religjionin. Turpi fund e krye ka t\u00eb b\u00ebj\u00eb me ne dhe me t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00ebn e asaj se kush jemi. Zemrat q\u00eb nuk rrahin politikisht gjithmon\u00eb kan\u00eb pasur barr\u00ebn e pashlyeshme t\u00eb cmimit. Dhe jan\u00eb duke e paguar ende.<\/p>\n

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Duke e par\u00eb veten n\u00eb mes t\u00eb atyre q\u00eb m\u00eb p\u00ebrfaq\u00ebsojn\u00eb dhe n\u00eb mes atyre q\u00eb m\u00eb shohin si t\u00eb p\u00ebrfaq\u00ebsuar, un\u00eb heq dor\u00eb nga t\u00eb qenit njeri i lir\u00eb. Thjesht\u00eb liria nuk m\u00eb intereson. Dhe nuk dua t\u00eb shkoj askund. Sall dua t\u00eb rri k\u00ebtu ku rron i biri dreqit. Ngase nuk jam k\u00ebtu p\u00ebr t\u00eb ja dh\u00ebn\u00eb t\u00eb drejt\u00ebn nj\u00ebr\u00ebs an\u00eb dhe t\u00eb padrejt\u00ebn an\u00ebs tjet\u00ebr. Nuk jam k\u00ebtu p\u00ebr t\u00eb qen\u00eb nj\u00ebsi llogarit\u00ebse e asnj\u00ebr\u00ebs pal\u00eb. Kjo do t\u00eb ishte fyese. Jam k\u00ebtu padashje. P\u00ebr aq sa nuk jam dikund tjet\u00ebr poashtu padashje. Kjo nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb koh\u00eb kur duhet t\u00eb mendosh p\u00ebr veten. Kjo \u00ebsht\u00eb koha e shpirtit t\u00eb vdekur.<\/p>\n

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***** Dikur e nj\u00eb koh\u00eb e dashura ime ishte suedeze. Por ajo q\u00eb dua t\u00eb them k\u00ebsaj here nuk ka lidhje me t\u00eb. \u00cbsht\u00eb fjala p\u00ebr di\u00e7ka tjet\u00ebr. P\u00ebr di\u00e7ka q\u00eb duket se shqet\u00ebson arsyen ton\u00eb t\u00eb p\u00ebrbashk\u00ebt. Mund\u00ebsia p\u00ebr t\u00eb l\u00ebvizur lirsh\u00ebm dhe p\u00ebr t\u00eb mos qen\u00eb pengje t\u00eb trishtuara gjeografike. Viktima t\u00eb past\u00ebrta […]<\/p>","protected":false},"author":511,"featured_media":9784,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[14],"tags":[1322,1702],"ppma_author":[1403],"class_list":["post-4911","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-kritike","tag-kritike","tag-qenie-e-lire"],"authors":[{"term_id":1403,"user_id":511,"is_guest":0,"slug":"shpetim-selmani","display_name":"Shp\u00ebtim Selmani","avatar_url":{"url":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/12\/shpetim-selmani.jpg","url2x":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/12\/shpetim-selmani.jpg"},"user_url":"","last_name":"Selmani","first_name":"Shp\u00ebtim","description":"Shp\u00ebtim Selmani \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb shkrimtar dhe aktor kosovar. Ka studiuar n\u00eb Universitetin e Prishtin\u00ebs. Ai ka luajtur n\u00eb sken\u00eb brenda dhe jasht\u00eb vendit."}],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4911","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/511"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=4911"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4911\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":9785,"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4911\/revisions\/9785"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/9784"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=4911"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=4911"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=4911"},{"taxonomy":"author","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/ppma_author?post=4911"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}