{"id":5461,"date":"2020-09-04T15:01:01","date_gmt":"2020-09-04T13:01:01","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/?p=5461"},"modified":"2024-10-24T15:04:17","modified_gmt":"2024-10-24T13:04:17","slug":"adriana-mallengjimi-dhe-kurthi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/en\/kritike\/adriana-mallengjimi-dhe-kurthi\/","title":{"rendered":"Adriana, mall\u00ebngjimi dhe kurthi"},"content":{"rendered":"<div class=\"news-left\">\n<p>Mbaj mend kur si tremb\u00ebdhjet\u00eb vje\u00e7ar kam hipur p\u00ebr t\u00eb par\u00ebn her\u00eb n\u00eb sken\u00ebn e teatrit Adriana, n\u00eb Ferizaj. Entuziazmi i paskajsh\u00ebm q\u00eb kishim shp\u00ebtuar nga lufta dhe ishim t\u00eb lir\u00eb, ishte i paansh\u00ebm. N\u00eb audicionin e at\u00ebhersh\u00ebm\u00a0<em>(q\u00eb udh\u00ebhiqej nga nj\u00eb regjisor, i diplomuar n\u00eb Tiran\u00eb p\u00ebr aktrim)<\/em>\u00a0ndihesha me turp, i traumatizuar dhe rrija shtrir\u00eb n\u00eb sken\u00eb p\u00ebr or\u00eb t\u00eb t\u00ebra, duke \u00ebnd\u00ebrruar p\u00ebr kapjen e mizave apo arom\u00ebn e perdeve. Kurr\u00eb nuk do ta harroj kur n\u00eb mes dy an\u00ebtar\u00ebve t\u00eb fundit, q\u00eb kishin mbetur p\u00ebr t\u2019u p\u00ebrzgjedhur, ai tha emrin tim. Isha i g\u00ebzuar, i shp\u00ebrfytyruar nga lumturia. I deformuar nga g\u00ebzimi dhe i sh\u00ebmtuar nga hareja. Ishte fillimi i nj\u00eb rruge q\u00eb do t\u2019i shkoja deri n\u00eb fund nd\u00ebrkoh\u00eb shpesh kam ndjer\u00eb p\u00ebr\u00e7mim e shaka t\u00eb pakripa ngase isha nga fshati. U m\u00ebsova me luft\u00ebn. Nj\u00eb luft\u00eb tjet\u00ebr. Por nuk kisha guximin e nj\u00ebrit nd\u00ebr personazhet e shkrimtarit kroat\u00a0<em>(q\u00eb pata rast ta takoj\u00eb)\u00a0<\/em>Edo Popovi\u00e7, kur godet shok\u00ebt e tij pa ndonj\u00eb arsye, duke u thirrur n\u00eb em\u00ebr t\u00eb sakt\u00ebsimit t\u00eb pozicioneve n\u00eb shoq\u00ebri. T\u00eb fortit dhe t\u00eb dob\u00ebtit. T\u00eb mjer\u00ebt dhe eg\u00ebrsirat. Natyisht me koh\u00eb nisa t\u00eb p\u00ebrshtatem dhe \u00e7do dit\u00eb e m\u00eb shum\u00eb t\u00eb analizoj realitete q\u00eb m\u00eb shfaqeshin, bindje shoq\u00ebrore dhe njer\u00ebz t\u00eb bukur q\u00eb kishin para tyre beteja t\u00eb ashpra. Luaja n\u00eb teat\u00ebr n\u00eb k\u00ebrkim t\u00eb nj\u00eb bote m\u00eb t\u00eb mir\u00eb dhe shkruaja vjersha si d\u00ebshmi q\u00eb ajo ekzistonte. B\u00ebra shum\u00eb vite n\u00eb teatrin Adriana. Shum\u00eb shfaqje dhe fal\u00eb teatrit dola nga Kosova p\u00ebr her\u00eb t\u00eb par\u00eb duke humbur virgj\u00ebrin\u00eb n\u00eb zemr\u00ebn e nj\u00eb qyteti t\u00eb vog\u00ebl gjerman, q\u00eb mbytej n\u00eb shi. Fal\u00eb teatrit m\u00ebsova t\u00eb qasesha ndryshe ndaj jet\u00ebs dhe k\u00ebshtu t\u00eb arsyetoja gabimet, lig\u00ebsit\u00eb dhe t\u00eb thurrja himne p\u00ebr qeniet e dob\u00ebta. Fal\u00eb teatrit kuptova se kishte di\u00e7ka p\u00ebrtej kutis\u00eb ku po dergjemi ende. Fal\u00eb teatrit nisa t\u00eb pij\u00eb alkool. Pa t\u00eb nuk b\u00ebj dot. Fal\u00eb teatrit u b\u00ebra qenie apolitike. Pastaj studiova n\u00eb Fakultetin e Arteve dhe para meje hapej nj\u00eb bot\u00eb tjet\u00ebr. Pak m\u00eb e nd\u00ebrlikuar por ende me besimin e patundur n\u00eb shenjt\u00ebrin\u00eb e profesionit. Nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb se kam b\u00ebrtitur n\u00ebp\u00ebr rrug\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb ja th\u00ebn\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb gj\u00eb njer\u00ebzve. Vuaj nga frika se b\u00ebhem qenie e posht\u00ebr sentimentale. Por kam besuar naivisht tek nj\u00eb mision absurd. Luaja n\u00eb shfaqje tjera dhe hapeshin horizonte tjera. Mundohesha ta jepja m\u00eb t\u00eb mir\u00ebn nga vetja. Nj\u00eb idealist i pashoq q\u00eb futej n\u00eb bot\u00ebn e pisll\u00ebkut.\u00a0 T\u00eb merremi vesh. Nuk jam k\u00ebtu p\u00ebr t\u2019u shkrehur n\u00eb vaj. As t\u00eb mbaj\u00eb kuror\u00ebn e patetizmit. Jam k\u00ebtu p\u00ebr t\u00eb ju th\u00ebn\u00eb se duhet t\u00eb b\u00ebheni barbar. Jam k\u00ebtu p\u00ebr t\u00eb ju th\u00ebn\u00eb se duhet ta hani nj\u00ebri-tjetrin. Jam k\u00ebtu p\u00ebr t\u00eb ju th\u00ebn\u00eb se lig\u00ebsia \u00ebsht\u00eb kod. Pandershm\u00ebria \u00ebsht\u00eb stil. Dhe vullneti p\u00ebr t\u00eb manipuluar \u00ebsht\u00eb esenc\u00eb.<\/p>\n<p>***<\/p>\n<p>P\u00ebr dit\u00eb t\u00eb t\u00ebra kam pasur presion t\u00eb jasht\u00ebzakonsh\u00ebm q\u00eb t\u00eb mos futem n\u00eb konkursin e hapur publik t\u00eb teatrit Adriana, t\u00eb atij teatri mbushur me kujtes\u00eb, trash\u00ebgimi shpirt\u00ebrore dhe t\u00eb kaluar. M\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb treguar vendi se ku duhet t\u00eb shkoj\u00eb, m\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb th\u00ebn\u00eb se aplikimi im \u00ebsht\u00eb nder p\u00ebr ta ama do t\u00eb ishte mir\u00eb t\u00eb mos vije, m\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb th\u00ebn\u00eb se do t\u00eb m\u00eb marrin m\u00eb von\u00eb, me \u00ebsht\u00eb f\u00ebrkuar shpina, m\u00eb jan\u00eb rrahur shpatullat, m\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb diskutuar zanafilla. Nuk dyshoj se ka pasur padrejt\u00ebsi tjera, kudo dhe n\u00eb \u00e7do koh\u00eb. Por secili le t\u00eb flet p\u00ebr vete pa k\u00ebrkuar shpagim. Tani e dim\u00eb se cfar\u00eb do t\u00eb thot\u00eb kjo gj\u00eb. Ne b\u00ebhemi idiot kur reagojm\u00eb kryek\u00ebput p\u00ebr bishtin ton\u00eb. Q\u00eb t\u00eb jemi t\u00eb sinqert\u00eb. M\u00eb ofroheshin oferta josh\u00ebse nga n\u00ebpun\u00ebs komunal t\u00eb rinj\u00eb, b\u00ebheshin kalkulime dhe m\u00eb tregohej lista se kush ishin zgjedhur. Natyrisht nuk kam asgj\u00eb kund\u00ebr. E kuptoj mbijetes\u00ebn, barbarin\u00eb e saj dhe natyr\u00ebn e saj t\u00eb pakompromis. Ajo \u00e7far\u00eb nuk kuptoj \u00ebsht\u00eb mungesa e dinjitetit, rruga ku mungojn\u00eb parimet elementare njer\u00ebzore dhe dominimi politik mbi qytetarin e shkret\u00eb dhe mbi \u00e7do integritet t\u00eb tij. Pakurrizor\u00ebt dhe aristokracit\u00eb t\u00eb kalbura. Natyrisht nuk e kisha nd\u00ebrmend t\u00eb hiqesha p\u00ebr arsye se m\u00eb kishin kapur inatet dhe d\u00ebshira ime p\u00ebr t\u00eb ju kund\u00ebrv\u00ebn\u00eb fashizmit provincial, ishte e paepur. Para nj\u00eb komisioni q\u00eb m\u00eb ngjanin si burokrat\u00ebt e Kafk\u00ebs, recitova gati n\u00eb vaj nj\u00eb poezi t\u00eb Brehtit. M\u00eb vinte t\u00eb p\u00eblcisja nga nj\u00eb ndjenj\u00eb, q\u00eb asesi nuk e deshifroja. Nj\u00eb improvizim total dhe nj\u00eb dor\u00eb e zgjatur e nj\u00eb politike banale. Nj\u00eb komedi e dhimbshme e Havelit, n\u00eb teatrin Adriana. Q\u00eb ishte jet\u00eb. Ishte e v\u00ebrtet. N\u00ebn v\u00ebshtrimin e komisioner\u00ebve t\u00eb zymt\u00eb, isha gati t\u00eb shaja \u00e7do gj\u00eb dhe t\u00eb braktisja t\u00ebr\u00eb at\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb cil\u00ebn kisha jetuar. Natyrisht e dija rezultatin dhe isha gati p\u00ebr ta marr\u00eb. Kaq m\u00eb mjaftonte. Njeriut i duhen k\u00ebto gj\u00ebra. \u00cbsht\u00eb i pamend. Dhe kok\u00ebfort\u00eb p\u00ebr ca gj\u00ebra absurde. Po luaja me ta dhe me veten. E pyesja veten pse. Un\u00eb nj\u00eb djal\u00eb i Bob Dylanit. Nj\u00eb infrarealist i vet\u00ebm. Nj\u00eb katundar post-punk. Nj\u00eb kritik i Houllebecqut. Nj\u00eb shok i Arben Idrizit. Nj\u00eb admirues i Bolanos. Nj\u00eb gjykues i Malapartes. Nj\u00eb Tom Waits komik. N\u00eb at\u00eb gjendje t\u00eb mjer\u00eb, para nj\u00eb vler\u00ebsimi q\u00eb ishte arg\u00ebtues p\u00ebr djajt\u00eb. Ishte sall kujtesa. Kujtimet dhe d\u00ebshira ime e pakuptueshme p\u00ebr t\u00eb qen\u00eb p\u00ebrs\u00ebri f\u00ebmij\u00eb n\u00eb Teatrin Adriana. Ishte nj\u00eb kurth barbar. I koh\u00ebs. Kaq. Nuk e kisha kuptuar ende, se m\u00eb kishte rruar dreqi.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"news-right\">\n<div class=\"post\">\n<p class=\"author\">\n<\/div>\n<\/div>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Mbaj mend kur si tremb\u00ebdhjet\u00eb vje\u00e7ar kam hipur p\u00ebr t\u00eb par\u00ebn her\u00eb n\u00eb sken\u00ebn e teatrit Adriana, n\u00eb Ferizaj. Entuziazmi i paskajsh\u00ebm q\u00eb kishim shp\u00ebtuar nga lufta dhe ishim t\u00eb lir\u00eb, ishte i paansh\u00ebm. N\u00eb audicionin e at\u00ebhersh\u00ebm\u00a0(q\u00eb udh\u00ebhiqej nga nj\u00eb regjisor, i diplomuar n\u00eb Tiran\u00eb p\u00ebr aktrim)\u00a0ndihesha me turp, i traumatizuar dhe rrija shtrir\u00eb [&hellip;]<\/p>","protected":false},"author":511,"featured_media":9133,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[14],"tags":[1544],"ppma_author":[1403],"class_list":["post-5461","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-kritike","tag-teatri"],"authors":[{"term_id":1403,"user_id":511,"is_guest":0,"slug":"shpetim-selmani","display_name":"Shp\u00ebtim Selmani","avatar_url":{"url":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/12\/shpetim-selmani.jpg","url2x":"https:\/\/sbunker.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/12\/shpetim-selmani.jpg"},"user_url":"","last_name":"Selmani","first_name":"Shp\u00ebtim","description":"Shp\u00ebtim Selmani \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb shkrimtar dhe aktor kosovar. 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